untitled shiruvi 2025/10/19 (Sun) 1:16:24 AEST 99

I've completely avoided all of my responsibilities for the past week so I can play this stupid anime mmorpg.

untitled shiruvi 2025/10/18 (Sat) 5:44:58 AEST 98

There are quite a lot of things in Reiter's book I want to comment on, but I'm way too tired to say it all right now. Expect a long post in the future, when I finish the book(currently halfway).

untitled shiruvi 2025/10/16 (Thu) 11:42:01 AEST 97

I'll fuckin' miss you Tristan.

women shiruvi 2025/10/10 (Fri) 15:41:15 AEST 96

"Oh, you adorable little foid, how my heart writhes in conflict as you tempt me so..."

MEPHISTOPHELES

She, there? She's coming from confession,
Of every sin absolved; for I,
Behind her chair, was listening nigh.
So innocent is she, indeed,
That to confess she had no need.
I have no power o'er souls so green.

FAUST

And yet, she's older than fourteen.

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when they invite you to the sinister diddyblud rapecel 764 groupchat but youre actually a safe edgy magachud moralfag consentcel

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I can't believe some of you have the GALL to call ME a racist, homophobic, transphobic, nazi, fascist, oppressive, bigoted pedophile when I'm LITERALLY a non-white racial and sexual minority. It's CRAZY! You know, maybe YOU'RE the racist one, because all of you white people keep trying to police me and harass me! This is racism! Additionally, I'm also literally a bisexual, so like, maybe chill out on the fucking bi-erasure you fucking bigots!? Furthermore, how can I be a Nazi-fascist when I'm not even white??? Like, only white people can be racist-neo-nazi-fascists you idiots. Stop being stupid. One of my closest friends is also literally black, so. Oh, and how can I be a pedophile when I'm literally 12 years old???? Are you guys nuts??? Isn't it normal to be attracted to people the same age as you??? You guys are bonkers. I'm not going to associate myself with racists and oppressors like you guys. I can't believe it. Ugh. It's fucking DISGUSTING!!!

miscellaneous thoughts shiruvi 93

School holidays are over, unfortunately. Atleast it's the last term, meaning it's apparently only like, 6 weeks. These 6 weeks are going to feel absolutely torturous though. For fuck's sake man, I haven't done any holiday homework and it's SUNDAY. I'm trying my best to just not give a fuck, cause I'm sure it'll all find a way to work out in the end(it always does), but school stresses me the hell out when really, it shouldn't. I only need ~83 ATAR for a Bachelors in IT(Major in Cybersec) and that seems somewhat achievable without putting in too much effort, and either way this is only Y11. Maybe if I act mentally-ill enough I can get some sort of workload reduction, who knows. That would probably relieve me of so much bullshit.

Nevermind, I just checked, it's not only 6 weeks.

I really need to go get diagnosed for ADHD, I'm genuinely willing to bet my life I have it. It's just the fact that it takes like 6 months to diagnose or something. Is there seriously one thing I don't procrastinate on!? It's fucking insane.

i love you sleepy shiruvi 92

I should've posted this earlier but man I love my friends. They are so sweet. I really love them all, and especially Sleepy for gifting me this.

untitled shiruvi 91

This is a pretty interesting attempt at a justification for natalism from a perspective where Christ or an afterlife is not in view. D'Annunzio argues that art is the only eternity, but that cannot be, for a contingent being cannot bring forth something that is necessary(or in this case, eternal, but that is irrevelant for the fact that to be eternal is to also be necessary). Art is simply a contingent method of presenting something that can be necessary. Art itself is not necessary. It is interesting nonetheless, and a very beautiful proposition, disregarding it's falsehood. If you have the money and time to spare, please consider purchasing @KarlReiter5's book, "The Fire and the Sea".

""Ah!" D'Annunzio released Vitale's hands, clasped
his own together, enraptured. "Youth is the future,
my friends!" he said in his raised voice, addressing
the table. "Such glorious youth as this has flocked
to our banner. How can we fail? Youth is beauty, and
beauty is power! Who can stand against us? The
ugly and the worn-out - we shall sweep them away,
sure as spring follows winter!""
- Karl Reiter, "The Fire and the Sea"

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I think there's something incredibly cool about having a dedicated little device SPECIFICALLY used for playing visual novels, like a 3DS(lol) or a small lenovo laptop from pre-2012 or something(x201 maybe? not the one in the picture btw). A little mini laptop I can whip out when im bored to play MuvLuv on the train or in class. Just a little bit of tinkering to get linux, wine and executables running and I could read so much shit. If I get the 3DS then maybe it could even double as a pseudo-e-reader for some books I'm trying to get through. But to be honest, I'm thinking of getting an actual e-reader in the future anyway and jailbreaking it because I'm not some stupid old geezer. Or maybe I'll just make my e-reader play visual novels, that's probably a more efficient way to go about it. I've had this idea for quite a while now and I really want to see it executed someday.

personality shiruvi 89

You may find that, for a lot of people, the internet is an outlet for their "true personality", and treat it as separate to the personality they'd show to people they know IRL. I choose not to make this distinction however, because I simply don't care anymore. I'm tired of hiding who I really am or my opinions to some of these people, and if you or anyone else dislikes who I am, I don't care. Because if you dislike how I act and the things I like, why would I have any reason to care about you if I wouldn't like you? You hold no ability to affect my life or the things I enjoy in any significant manner, so why would you matter to me? I think people should stay true to themselves, whether it be a good or bad thing. It makes weeding out the bad from the good a lot easier. If this principle causes me to be a loner again then I'd rather be a loner then another stupid goy who's too scared to be themselves. Now of course, this principle is thrown out the window regarding jobs and employment(ahaha). I'm not afraid to lie my way into any position of employment lol. These companies don't care about me, why should I care about them? Yes Maccas, I am an oppressed black and asian transgender pregnant disabled xe/xim lesbian autistic.

weed and schizophrenia shiruvi 88

I'm not gonna lie, I bought some weed off some random darknet market and I don't really know if I should smoke it or not. I have no intention of getting addicted to this stuff, nor do I care about the "high"(in a sense) or any supposed enlightenment. But there are some things in life you just have to try atleast once(cigarettes, alcohol, yknow), and I'm tryna decide whether this is one of them. Eh, who cares. I'm not in any rush so I'll wait until next month to see how I feel. I also just wanted to learn how to use the darknet, for no reason other than curiosity. The darknet bible was an interesting read, but I doubt I'll ever seek it out again for any more information. I'm not gonna be using the darknet in the near future anyway(definitely in the coming years though; jewish attacks on global security have been worrying me more and more). Except for Lambdachan and LH.

The nanosphere has intrigued me for the past month and it's sort of opened me to a whole new world of schizophrenia. Essentially, the "nanosphere" is just anything related to nanochan, an imageboard hosted over Tor and I2P. I'm pretty sure it got killed again recently though, as I haven't seen any posts about it's comeback yet. There's a thread on endchan's hidden /nc/ board detailing the history of nanochan by some oldfag if you care about that. Anyway, they(Lambdachan)'ve really gone deep into this whole "the jews are spying on me and silencing me through incredibly advanced and technological surveillance techniques" dilemma even though anti-semitism has increased almost tenfold after Elon purchased xitter, so I legitimately have no idea what timeframe they think they live in. It's 2025, you can cut the larp and realize that maybe your anti-semitism isn't any different to anti-semitism posted by some guy on xitter or instagram under their full legal name, atleast in the eyes of the jews. Sure they're definitely spying on you but the silencing is only affecting the low-iqs. Quitting this elitism and making peace with the low-iq anti-semites, albeit frustrating, is a must if we are to actually fight against them. That aside, it's not incorrect to say that their claims of mass-surveillance aren't wrong though; I firmly believe that if not for Snowden, we would be in a whole lot of hell right now without any knowledge of what's going on. My view is that the jew's control over the world is slowly crumbling and this recent push of authoritarian mass-surveillance laws/ID mandates is a desperate attempt at regaining control of the populace. Marx was right when he said revolution begins with the people, and I can only hope that this is the start of a revolution that will actually manage to make some change. That's not to say that they don't still control almost all areas with political power though.

programming goals + some other rambling shiruvi 87

Throughout my life I've had a few "dream jobs", or rather just aspirations. At first, until I was 9, I wanted to become an astronaut because I loved space as a kid. I snapped out of this when I watched Michael Reeves and found the desire to study robotics and tech. My father is a programmer who used to work on many projects like NetScape(one of the first browsers) in Silicon Valley and many other countries around the world. So I really wanted to get good at programming in order to make him proud. But this was put on the back-burner when, during a roadtrip me, my father and my little brother went on when I was 12 or so, my father took a break from driving after having driven for many hours on end. It was around 2AM, and for some reason I was still awake. He got out of the car to stretch, and when he noticed I was still awake, he gestured for me to get out of the car and stretch too. This is the moment I attribute to the awakening of my fascination with astrophysics. I got out of the car and above me was a very beautiful night sky. I stood there for minutes just admiring it. Ever since then, I've had a childish aspiration for astrophysics and space in general. I love the night sky, and I still do, but very recently this aspiration and motivation for the subject has greatly diminished. So, for now, the programming(excluding the robotics) has been taken off the back-burner.

My goals are as listed(in no particular order):

CS:
- Python
- Java
- JavaScript
- C++
- Rust
- HTML & CSS
- CS340 - Computer Networking
- CS377 - Operating Systems
- Security+(SYO-701)
- CS-related degree

Non-CS:
- Pen-spinning(it's fun okay? and it makes me look cool)
- 180WPM
- Get through some philosophy books(not listing them here)

Now obviously I haven't put much research into what my goals should actually be, but I atleast have to start somewhere. I haven't a need to rush or anything so I figured I should just take my time.






























































































untitled shiruvi 86

Alright, fine, I'll actually try and blog about something and not just cc+cv kopipe all the time...

chinese loli shiruvi 85

I was in China to visit my girl friends familey.
We where running low on money so my girl friend decided to get a job for a while.
This left me alone all day do nothing so I started going for long walks down the people filled street.
One day I was walking alone when I came accross a cute little girl arould seven years old just sitting on the street crying. Her cloths where dirty and worn.
I sat next to her and ask if she was ok. She told me her father and mother had died in a accident in the factory where they lived ( In China workers are provided with housing by their work )
and the uncaring factory had kicked her out to the street. People in China don't really care about strangers so know one had asked her if she was ok or anything.
She told me a police man had even told her to be care of people who will try sell you.
Yet not tried to find her and home or anything. I asked her to come with me and she was very untrusting but she noded.
I took her home and gave her a nice bowl of noodles I told her she could watch TV and I would go out to find her some new cloths. I went out on to the street and found a stall.
I was really begining to enjoy having her arould I could pick anything and dress her how I wanted.
I picked a T-shirt that had a hood with kitty ears on it and some short shorts.
I went home and showed her the cloths and asked if she liked them she looked at me with a huge grin and called me a "GYI" it means like a strange man who watches to much anime.
I lol'd and asked if the cloths where ok she noded and bit her lip. She begain undress infront of me.... I asked her if she wanted me to leave the room she said why? I am a kid you should feel nothing when I am naked
I admited to her I infact felt something when she was naked and I was a complete weirdo for feeling.
She turned to me and said don't feel weird I am cute after all. If you keep me ill let you do things with me but just softley ok?
I noded I leave this part out because it will disguest moralfags and they wont read anymore the story.
So anyway my girl friend thought she was such a well believed little cutie and also agreed to keeping her.
We ended up not leaving china and the little girl is called lui but she said she wanted a english name since her new ba (dad) is white so I call her lilly
Yeap its been 1 year and a hafe and she calls me dad everyday when I pick her up from school.
Shits so cash she copys how I act what I watch.
I now have a little asian loli me. I allow her to watch anything she like and unrestricted us of the Internet.
She plays heaps of Chinese QQ games and sometimes posts on /b/

gensokyo shiruvi 84

According to the print works people who end up in Gensokyo typically got lost in a specific forest. Commonly these people had entered the forest with the intention of committing suicide, but after entering Gensokyo either ended up killed by youkai (outside humans are not protected like village humans are) or would end up leaving before they had a long stay.

There are two probable locations of this forest. The first is of course Aokigahara since it is a very popular suicide location. However, there is a second location which Toshiaki of futaba has assured me has geography which is a closer match for Gensokyo.

To enter Gensokyo one must go to one of these locations, become lost, and stumble through the weak barrier. However, I theorize that if you go there with the intention of entering Gensokyo, you will not be able to enter for two reasons: the first is that there are no records of humans entering with knowledge of Gensokyo beforehand except those who have some kind of strong powers. The second reason is that your belief in Gensokyo may be able to strengthen the barrier enough to prevent a weakling such as yourself from entering.

Now, I know you are thinking that you have already damned yourself, but not all hope is lost. If you can somehow truly accept your fate to not enter and go there to kill yourself honestly, maybe if you are lucky you will make it in. There is also the option to become very powerful and enter by your own means. I believe that this is the best option since it has been proven to work by others. There are several paths to this. Buddhism, shinto, and taoism have all proven to be faiths capable of attaining such power, but take a lot of effort and there are many people who failed to become powerful at all. There is also the option to become a youkai, which may actually be easier, but sure methods of doing so are uncertain. Possibly one can become a youkai by eating enough humans, or participating on other youkai-like behaviours enough.

untitled shiruvi 82

"I'm not really that extreme, soyjak. I'm just a democrat from 20 years ago"

"I just saw you kill and eat a hooker"

"I simply believe in sensible economic reform"


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One of the people I look up to goes by the name of Lee Jin Gyu. Look him up.

No, not the ice-hockey player. Not the assistant professor. Not the guy on Korea's Got Talent. Not even the K-Pop star. The other one.

schizophrenia shiruvi 80

On most browsers, you can bring up your browsing history by pressing Control-H. On Firefox, this brings up a sidebar that shows up on the left side of the window. If you put your mouse over the edge of the sidebar, the cursor will turn into a different kind of arrow. By clicking and dragging it, you can move the edge of the sidebar back and forth. You are, to put it another way, manipulating the border between the normal window and the history window. By moving the mouse, you can increase the portion of the window devoted to either part. In a more extreme view of this situation, you're increasing or decreasing the amount of existence the sidebar has.

Now, let's apply this idea to something more abstract. Look out your window. If you don't live in a highly urbanized area, you should be able to see the horizon. Think of this as the border between the land and the sky. The land and sky are obviously distinguishable thanks to this boundary. Now, if you were to "drag" the sash between the sky and the land, or to manipulate the border between land and sky, you would end up causing the sky to become larger and the land to become smaller, or vice versa. An effect of this might be to cause something that was just on the ground to suddenly be hundreds of feet in the air. Truly a frightening situation to be in. So, look at it this way - manipulating the border between two physical things shifts whatever balance there is in the interaction between those things. Alternatively, by manipulating the border between two things, you can change the manner in which they exist.

Still, this isn't *that* abstract, since it's still dealing with real things in the real world. Many believe that in this world, there are those things that are true, and those that obviously aren't. This divides reality into two extremes: truth and falsehood. But, since we have two extremes, logically one can imagine a boundary between those two extremes - the border between truth and lies. If one were to manipulate this border, suddenly things that were pure fantasy (flying pigs, for the sake of argument) have become reality - or things from reality have ceased to exist. This is how Yukari is said to have invaded the moon - by manipulating the border between truth and lies, as applied to the reflection of the moon on a pond, she was able to make the reflection of the moon into a manifestation of the actual moon, and so send her youkai army onto it. This is what's truly amazing about Yukari's power - the ability to manipulate the border between completely abstract concepts allows her to fundamentally change reality as we know it (at least in terms of two abstract concepts).

Yoshinoya shiruvi 79

Anyways, >>1, please listen to me. That it's really related to this thread.
I went to Yoshinoya a while ago; you know, Yoshinoya?
Well anyways there was an insane number of people there, and I couldn't get in.
Then, I looked at the banner hanging from the ceiling, and it had "150 yen off" written on it.
Oh, the stupidity. Those idiots.
You, don't come to Yoshinoya just because it's 150 yen off, fool.
It's only 150 yen, 1-5-0 YEN for crying out loud.
There're even entire families here. Family of 4, all out for some Yoshinoya, huh? How fucking nice.
"Alright, daddy's gonna order the extra-large." God I can't bear to watch.
You people, I'll give you 150 yen if you get out of those seats.
Yosinoya should be a bloody place.
That tense atmosphere, where two guys on opposite sides of the U-shaped table can start a fight at any time,
the stab-or-be-stabbed mentality, that's what's great about this place.
Women and children should screw off and stay home.
Anyways, I was about to start eating, and then the bastard beside me goes "extra-large, with extra sauce."
Who in the world orders extra sauce nowadays, you moron?
I want to ask him, "do you REALLY want to eat it with extra sauce?"
I want to interrogate him. I want to interrogate him for roughly an hour.
Are you sure you don't just want to try saying "extra sauce"?
Coming from a Yoshinoya veteran such as myself, the latest trend among us vets is this, extra green onion.
That's right, extra green onion. This is the vet's way of eating.
Extra green onion means more green onion than sauce. But on the other hand the price is a tad higher. This is the key.
And then, it's delicious. This is unbeatable.
However, if you order this then there is danger that you'll be marked by the employees from next time on; it's a double-edged sword.
I can't recommend it to amateurs.
What this all really means, though, is that you, >>1, should just stick with today's special.

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