"They are dependent, not upon strength, but upon craft; and hence their instinctive capacity for cunning, and their ineradicable tendency to say what is not true. For as lions are provided with claws and teeth, and elephants and boars with tusks, bulls with horns, and cuttle fish with its clouds of inky fluid, so Nature has equipped woman, for her defence and protection, with the arts of dissimulation; and all the power which Nature has conferred upon man in the shape of physical strength and reason, has been bestowed upon women in this form. Hence, dissimulation is innate in woman, and almost as much a quality of the stupid as of the clever."

Seldom do you ever see the clever variant of that which Schopenhauer is talking about. Also women sound a lot like jews in this quote lol. Replace "women" with "jews" and you can likely pass this off as a quote from Goebbel's Mimicry.

An absolute gem of a channel that I've been watching recently

I'm scared something's gonna ruin it all.

I've been thinking a lot about my old friends. Kieran especially. He's a close friend of mine from Perth. Last time we talked he said he was going to uni in Sydney, which just adds another line to the tally of friends I have in Sydney. I need to go there someday, for a week or two, and just meet all of them. I really miss talking to Kieran, he was another one of those friends who taught me many things—a huge source of inspiration, even now. I saw on his insta that he has a girlfriend now. I'm gonna try talking to him again to reconnect because I feel like I've changed quite a lot since the last time I talked to him. I still fondly reminisce about those super late nights where we'd just play Valorant and Overwatch and talk together for hours on end until we had to go to school. If you ever wondered why I was always about to fall asleep at school, and why my sleep schedule is so absolutely horrendous, that's why.



Update: I talked to him for the first time in a long while now, he's doing fine. He's gonna do AI in uni, so he's building a pc late Feb and wants to play Marvel Rivals together. Reminds me a lot of when we played Overwatch. He also decided not to move to Sydney because he just has too many friends in Perth to leave, which is honestly fair.

I love thinking. I love introspection. Very rarely will I ever have to stress my brain thinking about things I love to think about. However I despise using my brain for anything I'd rather not do if I could. Things like maths, schoolwork, friendships, drama, etcetera. I find ways to distract myself from the topic at hand—to avoid anything I'm not comfortable with. I like to think about my interests. If it isn't related to anything I'm interested in, then I tend to just regard it as unimportant and useless. This is why school stresses me out so much; It takes so much effort to just focus and do my work. "I could be thinking about x right now" or "I still have all those threads to read" or "I wonder what x is doing right now". They're all distractions from things that I need to be doing. It's infuriating. ADHD is a unique kind of torture that is very hard to convey because people will just call you "lazy" and berate you for being unable to do something as simple as focusing and doing schoolwork for hours on end. How do people do that without their mind wandering back to places it's familiar with? It's a foreign activity I've been trying the past two years to grasp. And the procrastination. The mental gymnastics. Don't even get me started. I was supposed to get diagnosed for ADHD this holiday but I've been so lazy or invested in other matters I can't bring myself to just ask my mother. It sucks having a mother that I can't convey barely complex English and ideas to. Imagine trying to explain ADHD to her. "Oh, I just can't help myself from getting distracted." Same thing. I'll just get called "lazy" and berated.

Anyway, enough about negative things. This holiday has been a net positive atleast. Many things happened. Mainly family stuff. I reunited with my father and his side of the family after almost 4 years. Got to finally meet my two beautiful step-sisters. 5 & 3, they're adorable. I have to do everything in my power to make sure they're raised right. I love them, they're my blood. Thank God my step-mother is Catholic. That's already a really good start. I've also been trying to change my attitude towards my little brother. He's the only full sibling I have, so I have to keep him as close as possible. I used to always look down on him, or not really care for him. But he's my brother and it's my duty as an older sibling to help guide him aswell onto the right path. It's very easy to get yanked onto a path of degeneracy and sin in this secular society. He's about to enter his most important years of development, 14-16. I believe that whatever happens during this period defines your young adult life. I was lucky enough, thank God, to have not fallen into complete degeneracy after this period. It's terrifying to see how close I was. My guardian angel was working overtime I tell ya. Also, if you guys haven't already seen, I got a silver cross necklace. It's really beautiful. I've wanted one for a long time now and I think it looks very pretty. My little brother has a gold one and I think it looks terrible on him. My ex was right, gold just tends to look bad on asians.

My study has been going well, not perfect, but definitely not bad. Reached 400 words on my Core6k Anki Kanji deck. I saw an oomf of mine recently start out and he had like, 4 decks separated into multiple sub-decks. I was like, wow. You definitely don't need that much. Just use a site like djtkana and then grind out a deck and grammar guide. Overcomplicating shit just makes it harder.

Oh, I forgot to mention, my step-mother bought a fuck ton of skincare products for me because she wanted me to get into skincare, which is really nice. I've always wanted to get into it but I didn't have the time nor the money to do anything. Luckily she held my hand through it all and taught me everything I needed to know. Hopefully this all works... Smooth clean skin would probably elevate my face quite a lot...

ZachXBT investigation 1
ZachXBT investigation 2

The thing about all of these crypto-cybercriminals is that they are completely uninformed and ignorant towards the concept of opsec and osint, which ultimately leads to their demise. To briefly explain osint, it is essentially all of the information that is publically available online. People can use this information to connect accounts and identities, and to reveal information. Osint is the main tool that people use to dox people online, with tools like blackbird. There's a whole bunch of tools and weapons I've used that I could talk about but to keep it brief, people can very easily connect your full name to an "anonymous" account online. These cybercriminals seem like they are completely unaware of this threat. They also LOVE to flaunt their winnings and spend it on meaningless bullshit like drugs, cars and whores. It just got me thinking: What's stopping me from doing this too and making shitloads of money? I have very little desire for vain indulgences, and a very small online presence(that's connected to my name, let alone ip address). If I made, say, 2 mil, I'd easily just lay low for the rest of my life and erase all of my online identity and cease all activities. I don't know why this seems so hard for these retards, especially the group that made 243 mil.

A nice round number for the post ID to start the year! Happy New Year everyone! I'm sorry I didn't make a post on the day of, I was pretty unmotivated and busy with other matters.

I don't actually have much to say. Or rather, I have a lot to say, but I just don't have the motivation to figure out a way to articulate it all yet. So I'll just leave you with this: Although it is 100% an imperative to understand your self-worth, and what you deserve, you must never sacrifice your standards, whether you believe they are too high or not. Let what you desire fuel you with the motivation to improve and to be a better person in everything that you do. You want a loyal wife? Go and make sure you deserve a loyal wife. You can very much rightfully complain about the effort not matching the rewards, but what will that do? Eventually you will be a 30 year old alcoholic who never had any girl other than their mother love them, and you will still be complaining. You can whine about 'modern women' or 'society', but don't let that prevent you from sacrificing your blood, sweat and tears for what you desire. Never 'settle' on a woman that is not perfect for you. Never 'settle' on anything that is outside what you want, and work as hard as you possibly can to achieve your greatest desires. The human race's(or rather, the non-darkskinned excluding the Jews and the secular Chinese's) desire to strive for the stars, and to keep improving in everything that is good and casting out everything that is bad, is the only reason why we are here today. The crumbling of that fundamental part of the human soul is what I believe to be one of the tragedies that has led to the corruption of the world.

Romans 12:2 states "And be not conformed to this world, but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."